It has been a fair old time since I’ve written an update about how I am doing with the whole HS2 situation. I thought perhaps I had better write something and share where we are at and how I am doing with it all.
The answer is quite simply, we’re still here!
Everyone told us it would be a long process selling our house to the government, and they were not wrong. But unfortunately in our case, with all the complexities of us being on a new housing estate and so many of us doing this all at once, things are moving even slower. We are waiting for HS2’s surveyors to give us a valuation on our house that will actually enable us to afford to move, and until we get that we aren’t going anywhere.
So even though we haven’t moved forward with that, it is still an emotional drain on us all. Me especially. I have found it very emotional with Sam starting school and settling in so well. I am making friends with the mums there and wanting to get involved, but then part of me is always reminded that he might not be there next year. It is so hard to build relationships not knowing if they’ll be destroyed if/when we move.
Physically it is having a toll on my health still. Although I have tried to give it all over to God and not to worry, sometimes my anxiety kicks in and I end up suffering with headaches, tiredness, jaw ache and faintness. Constantly carrying a question mark about your future around with you all the time is hard work!
Every time a new letter drops or progress is made it all comes flooding back, and my poor husband gets the full force of emotional Rachel. The verse that God has been giving me lately is this one:
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still” Exodus 14:14
Spoken to the Israelite’s as they faced their first battle after leaving slavery in Egypt, Moses reminded everyone that it is the Lord’s battle and not theirs. God reminded me of this too – that ultimately He can see the offer that we finally get given, He can see the house that we will move in to and His hand is over all that to bring about His purposes for our future. The battle is already won. I need only to be still.