Hello Mummy Meditators!! Welcome to week 7 of our Esther series, and to a summary of what God has been revealing to me and others this week. Our verse this week was:
“He also gave him a copy of the text of the edict for their annihilation, which had been published in Susa, to show to Esther and explain it to her, and he told him to instruct her to go into the king’s presence to beg for mercy and plead with him for her people.” Esther 4:8
I think the first thing that struck me in this verse was the desperation in Mordecai’s message. Here is a man who is weeping and wailing outside the palace, making a scene and refusing to stop. Here is a man who desperately wants to see his last remaining relative but can’t. Here is a man who is going to be murdered in a few days time, along with many other people from his nationality. Here is a man thinking of any crazy idea to try to get out of this predicament.
And that is when it comes to him. I don’t think that in any way this was planned or that he sent Esther into the palace “just in case something bad happened”. No, I think he is just standing outside the palace grieving and wailing, and then it comes to him. ESTHER COULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS!!!!
You know that tone people get in their voice when they are grasping at straws, at any possible way out of a bad situation. Begging, grovelling, wild eyes and crazy voice. I imagine Mordecai speaking so quickly and excitedly that the messenger had to ask him twice what he was saying. And I imagine him hopping up and down with nervous excitement that it might work. Yes, he might have just sorted out this pickle that they are all in. And so he sends his message to Esther…
Up until now, Esther was probably unaware of what it was that had made her cousin go slightly crazy and refuse to come see her, despite her best efforts to send him clothes. And so I can imagine her nervously pacing up and down in her quarters of the palace. Perhaps her servants are telling her to relax, trying to comfort her, but she is having none of it until the messenger she has sent comes back. He walks in and she rushes over to him, desperate to hear what Mordecai has to say. But its not good news.
In our discussions this week, some of our community members highlighted how alone Esther would have felt receiving this news. Yes, she was probably surrounded by people (servants and eunuchs), but she was the only one there whom this message had deadly consequences for. As this news was read, I can see her staff being confused as to why this was affecting Esther so much – she hadn’t told anyone she was a Jew. Perhaps at the reading of the edict she just crumpled in grief and pain at the knowledge of what was going to happen to her people. To her beloved cousin. To herself.
And yet there was one pain more than that. A personal pain that Mordecai had requested of her. To go into the King’s presence.
Asked to do the unthinkable
Have you ever been asked to do something you really don’t want to, but its by someone you really respect, trust, honour or love? Have you experienced that sinking feeling that you don’t want to do it because you know its going to be awkward or uncomfortable or dangerous, but you know that that person wouldn’t be asking unless it was entirely necessary? That would be the heavy sinking feeling Esther would be having right now. That would be the lump forming in her throat. That would be the tears coming to her eyes. Her head would be in overdrive thinking through the consequences, the other option, any other way to sort this out that didn’t involve her having to approach the king. Why? Well that is for next week to discover….
Esther sends a message back to Mordecai next week, and we will be meditating on this verse:
“All the king’s officials and the people of the royal provinces know that for any man or woman who approaches the king in the inner court without being summoned the king has but one law: that they be put to death unless the king extends the gold scepter to them and spares their lives. But thirty days have passed since I was called to go to the king.” Esther 8:11
I hope you will join me in thinking and discussing this verse during the week over in our Facebook group.
There is also the chance to join in a Happy Mail exchange for Purim (the celebration of the story of Esther) later in March, so don’t forget to sign up here!