“Pray more, worry less” has kind of become my mantra recently. Since the stress of HS2 news dropping on me last July, I have been slowly sinking in a sea of anxiety and stress. I had been feeling overwhelmed to the point that is was physically affecting me. I had constant headaches, normally dull enough to cope with, but more often than nope escalating as I felt the stresses of each day rising. Normal painkillers had stopped working, and the doctors couldn’t find anything else wrong with me, so I deduced it must be stress.
I knew why. I hadn’t been actually giving these worries to God.
I knew the verses, and could tell you them before well meaning people quoted them at me if I mentioned my stress. But it wasn’t until I actually accepted that I had a problem that I was able to start dealing with it. When I went to Captivated Conference I decided enough was enough – I had to get over this. I bought a book dealing with anxiety and contentment and started reading. I am still only a third of the way through, but one story in the first chapter hit me.
It was a story of a night when the author couldn’t sleep. Something was worrying her. She knew the verses too – pray about everything and give it over to God. She prayed. Got back into bed. But it still kept bothering her. I really identified with that. I knew that there were times when I prayed out of habit but still kept hold of that worry, and so the thing she said next really hit me hard.
She said that she got up and prayed again. And she repeated the process until she had actually given that worry to God. That was when it hit me – I needed to keep persevering in prayer, to be praying until the anxiety went. I had prayed but only briefly.
So now I am trying to pray until the feeling of uncertainty and anxiety leaves me. I am trying to pray away the worry. I am praying until I feel God lift the weight off me and take it into his burden. And I do feel better.
I have had significantly less headaches since then (ask my husband if you don’t believe me!), although driving to unknown places often sets them off no matter how hard I pray! I have had no more panic attacks or days of overwhelming anxiety. I am now looking for physical reminders to do this and make it easier for me to remember to “pray more, worry less“. I am thinking a notebook I can carry around with me might help, where I can write any and all prayers for any and all worries during the day. We shall see! Does anyone have any other ideas on how to deal with this? Do share below….