At the end of 2013/start of 2014 God revealed a word to me for the year ahead – that word was “catalyst”. I had no idea what this word truly meant, I have no clue what it’s significance might be for me over this coming year, and I hope that I can expand on this as the year goes on.
My starting point for exploring why God had revealed this word to me was to find out its true meaning. There is of course the scientific meaning of the word, but the non-scientific definition of a catalyst is “someone or something that helps bring about a change”. I am pretty sure that I am not that person at the moment as most of my time is spent at home doing the same things, day in, day out. But there were two things that jumped out at me from this definition
- what change is it that I am supposed to bring about?
- change sounds risky, so I’m pretty sure there is going to be some kind of risk or sacrifice involved in being a catalyst
- I knew the change I needed to bring about was both for myself – to get me out of the house and socialising with other mums – but also for others. It can be a lonely world being a mum, and I was 100% sure that for every time I had the thought of being lonely there was at least one other mum thinking the same.
- The cost involved in this is rejection. It is scary to put yourself out there and ask for friendship and for no-one to reply. Out of the 6 or so mum’s who had attended the toddler group, only 1 has taken me up on the offer to meet up outside of this. I am facebook friends with some of them, and hopefully I can support and encourage them in this way, but in reality it still hurts to be rejected in this way.